So all my other blathering aside, I have managed to score myself a date. Not like this is a rare thing, but in this situation things are a little (a lot ) different. My life is still under some pretty heavy construction, but everything is pretty well on track and sort of going by plan.... if you can call it a plan . At this point in my life I am just tired of a whole lot of shit. Silly shit that people waste their time with. I mean as I am typing this post a jet liner could land on my house were I would be lit on fire and die a horrible death. One of the things I am most definitely done doing is going on pointless dates. They are exactly as described .. POINTLESS. So when talking to one of my good friends(who I just happen to like as well) brings up the fact she is single I go and before I know what I have said and done.. requested dinner, drinks etc. She accepted. The panic of what I had done struck about 20 minutes after the fact when I realized what had happened. Why is this a big deal ? is it a big deal ? Yes, no and maybe. She is a wonderful person, smart, caring, kind. Quality people like this don't come wandering (single) into your life on a regular basis. As mentioned in my other thread, I have been bringing down the walls that have stopped me going out and doing something like this. At no point in my life have I had so much of who I really am out there for others to see, which is scary and awesome at the same time. Realistically, there is a possibility it won't work for this and that reason. But the fact that HOPE exists in this situation, but is not contingent on it. Priceless. It is a big deal, I stepped out and seized a moment, it isn't a big deal, because I will be who I really am.. and maybe it is a big deal... a new key element to my future?!