Well heres my first post so i really don't know what to expect. I am pretty damn depressed right now in my life. I have so much goin for me but i don't give a f**k any more. If this makes anysense i'm like an optomistic depressive. Eversince i was little i would think up ways to kill my self but i would refuse to do it. I'm so desperate for any answers in life i am posting here. Please don't flame me. My girlfriend broke up with me for really no reason. Every excuse she told me doesn't make sense. We dated for a year and i loved her to death. Last night she was on the internet and we talk for a while. Ya she said the "lets just be friends" thing so i was trying to be a friend. She seamed pretty sad. I was having people over at the moment and i told her. She said she was bored and the whole bit but i honestly thought she wouldnt' come over because she would think i was trying to get her back and i don't want to do that so i don't scare her out of my life. Well now today i invited her over (overcame the fear previously mentioned) and she said she would come over if all she is, is someone who entertains me just cuz i'm bored. She was all mad because of me not invited her when the truth is i wanted her over so bad. Now since we broke up she keeps goin to my friend's houses and she gets invited and i don't now. She is taking what was left of my life. She won't let me be. *Btw she broke up with me like 3 weeks ago. Sorry this is so long. I have so much frikin pressure on me right now in my life i just had to vent in some way. Please don't flame. I guess if this is kinda out there just let my thread die.