I am such a damn idiot. 3 years ago I broke up with my ex so that she could go on and be the person she needed to be. After doing that and the pain I went through I told myself that I would never let myself get involved with someone again. I am a loner, and I have no problem with that. But I fucked up. I hung around a girl for the past few weeks. I grew closer to her, and she to me. We both opened up and let each other know about our feelings for each other. But of course it wasn't that easy. She also likes a mutual friend of ours and tonight told me that she is not going to do anything with either of us, she prefers to know she has both our friendships to one or the other. This was the first time in 3 years I really felt anything for someone other than one other girl, and there are reasons why I never tried that one. Why couldn't I just be myself and pass over this one too. It isn't the first time I didn't follow my own better judgement, and everytime I get fucked over.