SRS why do some people self harm?

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  1. RyRy

    RyRy Active Member

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    I just don't get it. I feel like shit, I cut I feel better/ get a high, then I feel like shit for cutting and them wham bam thank you ma'am I'm back down at the bottom of the shit. I had done so good recently, I hadn't cut myself (on purpose) for just a few weeks shy of 3 months. ugh...

    btw not suicidal or anything like that just a cut to feel the pain and bleed.

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    Most cutters do so as a means of managing emotional material they cannot otherwise do.

    It's a coping mechanism.
     
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    converting psychological pain to physical pain.

    it also releases endorphins
     
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    Imagine you are locked in a room and you are crying to get out, what helps better, cutting yourself or a key to get out of that room? A key of course, and therefore you need to redirect the energy that you are investing into cutting into finding real solutions and the key for your problems that will unlock the door and make you able to move on with your life. Or in other words, you need to approuch your problems in a different way so that they can be solved. If you find yourself unable to do so you should consult a shrink.
     
  5. Lucky Penny

    Lucky Penny Mr. cut me some slack cause I don't wanna go back,

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    Almost 3 months is incredible, btw. I just wanted to acknowledge that.

    I get it :hs: it's that weird cycle where you feel horrible and the only solution that offers the relief that you need is this maladaptive behavior that you rely on. So you do it and after you come down from your self medicated fog you're all "aww, wtf :doh:" And then you just feel like shit again. And the cycle continues.

    We all have different ways of coping; you have cutting, I have my eating disorder, other people around here have alcohol or drugs :dunno: They're different mechanisms that serve the same purpose.

    It's easy for people to tell you to go get help but you have to decide if it's worth it to you to recover. Recovery is no small task and there is a lot of time and pain and effort invested in a process like that. I think we all (those who self medicate) get to a point where we are sick of our behaviors we decide that the prospect of recovery is worth the pain and heartache it takes to do so. But that's a big decision and sometimes the maladaptive behaviors seem much easier to deal with than the process of recovering. Have you taken some time to decide if recovery is something you're willing to pursue?

    I'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now :hug:
     
  6. RyRy

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    I had been so good but then yesterday all of the sudden boom I had the knife and there went 3 months progress down the drain. oh well here's to making the 4 or 6 month (or more) mark this time :)
     
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    For me it was both this time. Not really a calming effect but it lets me release the emotional shit and lets me feel pain. Sadistic but it usually snaps me out of a funk, or makes it worse.

    I'm lucky enough to have an amazing s/o so I don't have to meet new people, plus I've got so much social anxiety it's hard for me to meet new people.
     
  8. disley

    disley Ooooh no it isn't. Ooooh yes it is. OT Supporter

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    Sorry I can't read this thread, it's too weird.
    From the title, I'd suggest getting professional help.
     
  9. Lucky Penny

    Lucky Penny Mr. cut me some slack cause I don't wanna go back,

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    :slap: why even post then :ugh2:


    Zeromangus, a year and a half is awesome! Congrats! :h5:

    RyRy- that's a great attitude. Good luck and keep us updated :hs:
     
  10. Spaceering

    Spaceering I bite.

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    i cant relate to this exact practice but I find myself doing other things that involve a similar cycle. I think every living being finds themselves succumbing to some sort of activity that involves a cycle. So yours happens to be cutting, maybe the next person chooses porn :dunno:

    Keep up the good work. It will maybe be 6 months next time. Do not try to fight it, because i think that will be harmful in the long run. Eventually if you don't fight it, and let it flow you kind of "grow out" of it :dunno:
     
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    I used to burn myself all the tine with cigs. Only reason looking back on it now that I did it was the people in my life didn't do shit for me as far as realizing how much pain I was in and getting me some help. I was a teenager when I did it them move on to pill and booze overdoses. Got my shit straightened out for a few years, got on a good run there. Then went apeshit crazy, got some meds, transisti8oned to semi normal the just quit smoking AGAIN in june and went apeshit again and was mixing a shit ton of pills and booze again not in a cry for help or suicide, I just wanted to pass out and SLEEP.
    Cutting an other stuff like that can lead to much deeper problems down the road, i would seek some kind of help NOW.
     
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    I've come across 3 girls in my travels that cut them selves.

    Cuts / scars on arms & legs.

    Emotional pain is that much that they needed to take away from it by using physical pain.

    Normally during late teens or during a break up of some sought
     
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    I thought it was due to dopamine and endorphin release :dunno:

    Try skydiving instead.
     
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    I do it in places that only my s/o or myself could ever see. Hopefully the both of us will never cut again!!! :bigthumb:

    Yeah I'm actually listening to the pdoc because shit has got to change because this is not the life I want to live.
     

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