SRS why do i care about what my ex gf, of one month, may or may not be doing

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  1. Auspicious one

    Auspicious one New Member

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    i know it has no impact on me at this moment, but my mind keeps wanting to know : what she is doing, where she is, did she even care...

    probably insecurity from my ego?



    i guess my biggest problem is seeking something that will complete me...

    i am pointed constantly in the direction that i already have everything i need (enlightenment/divine presence) its just that my ego is too strong.

    i need to meditate more

    this suffering that i have encoutered so far in life has brought me to these realizations... just crucifying this ego is tough
     
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    Mr. Kitty Litter OT Supporter

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    I wonder the same thing about my ex GF.
    I just hate that things went the way they did between us.

    Why did she have to cheat and lie to me? :hs:
    We had our ups and downs, but I always treated her the best I could, and I guess it still wasn't enough. :wtc:
     
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    she lied to me but never cheated :hs:
     
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    I'm totally in this crew. My ex (had been together nearly 4 years) and I sort of ended it mutually just over a month ago. However, I still think about her/what she is doing/what she feels countless times during the day and especially at night. I think it is one part missing the person, one part your hurt ego, one part jealousy. I think I really get hung up that she is probably moving on to bigger and better things and, at least at this point, I'm simply not. :o

    It sucks but I think it's only natural. It will fade eventually. I'll also add that I don't think meeting other people is a cure for this. I think that only time heals and having something to fill your time makes it easier to cope. :hsd:
     
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    i think a new relationship would help things alot for me myself , finding someone that i like for who they are, i remember all the bad shit about the ex, and i can only remember things like her comforting me and stuff and cuddling that i enjoyed, but i was trying to change her. I didnt like who she was, and from what i hear she is still continuing on a shitty path...
     
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