Its been a month. she seems to be completely happy without me, enjoying her life without me, seemingly never thinking about me. Why can i be as apathetic towards her as she is towards me? I realize that what happened happened for a reason, and that things didnt work out for a reason. Why cant i accept that? Why cant i move on to someone else, to be happy without her, to be able to live my life without thinking about her every day? Why is it that i think about her every day, and nothing seems to distract me from her? She posted this on the guy's blog, although done so anonimously (despite having her own blog username, she signed it with her name): Me and him Him and me, We’re always together As you can see. I wish he’d leave So I’d be free I’m getting a little bit Tired of he, And he may be a bit Bored with me. On movies and ladies We cannot agree. I like to dance He loves to ski. H likes the mountains I love the sea. I like hot chocolate He wants his tea. I want to sleep He has to pee. He’s meaner and duller And fatter than me. But I guess there’s worse things We could be- Instead of two we could be three, Me and him Him and me. the "he/him" in the poem is obviously me. she wrote it before we broke up, it seems, maybe 3 months ago, yet only posted it now. I cant figure out what these lines mean: But I guess there’s worse things We could be- Instead of two we could be three, The only thing I can think of is getting her pregnant, but that seems really strange in that poem, as it has nothing to do with the rest. Why the fuck cant i let go of her? I had a dream last night about us getting back together. But, i do not want her back. I would rather deal with the pain than deal with the problems she caused me while we were dating. But at the same time, when we werent arguing, we had the most amazing times together. I miss those times the most, and whenever i see her, i feel a wave of nausea come over me and i feel like i will throw up. I hate how things have become between us. We are no longer friends or even acquaintances. Instead, we are 2 people who have a long hsitory with each other, resulting in really awkward moments when we run into each other. I never wanted our relationship to end, let alone end the way it did. I never wanted to lose her, and now I never want to keep her. Yet i still miss her. I wish there was some way to get over her as fast as she seems to have gotten over me. I wish there was some easy solution to all of this. I wish i was happy again. I know ill get flamed for this, but honestly, i dont give a shit, so save your breath. I havent cried over her since the first day we broke up.... but reading that poem, and seeing one of my better friends with his gf today has gotten me in a really fucked up emotional state.