I'm just wondering some things, before I go to a doctor. I'm really just going to blab on, in no peticular order. Lately I've just been under a ton of stress, such as money issues, my job, and other petty shit. My job is pretty stressfull, and I hate it. I've been looking to get out of it, but I don't have anything to go to, and I never went to college. Because of my job, I've had a rough relationship at home, and I'm really moody. Because of this, me and my girlfriend got into a fight, it became slightly physical, and I went to jail. So I have the stress from that as well. I also get irritated very easily by the simplest things. In the past I've compteplated suicide, but obviously I've never done it. So with all the stress and other BS in my life, I don't know what to do. I'm also, what you'd call anti-social. I hate big groups, I hate meeting new people, or anything of the sort. Hell, I'm afraid to go up to a buffet at a resturant (And it's not that I don't like my body or anything). So I've never really had any friends, not even during my childhood (that wasn't all that great). And to be honest, I don't have any friend's now either. I guess I do have a friend, but it's not like a normal friendship that I see other people having. We've just hung out occasionally, and I've helped him work on his car and viseversa. The only time I'm comfortable is when I've known someone for a while, and it's a more 1-on-1 situation. My mom is bi-polar, and so is her father, and one of her sisters. I'm not sure about her parents parents. And as far as I know, bi-polar is heretitary, so I could have it. One of the things I'm confused about is, is getting mad easily a sign of depression? I know breaking down from stress is, but what about my other problems?