I know that I am kinda young but I think I am fairly more mature for my age but I think this has created a bit of a problem in my life.(19) I feel lacking in the area of friends, of relationships, of accomplishments, and I am scared shit less about my future. Let me start by saying I have dated only twice in my life. One a year ago ( for 4 months) and the other with a coworker at my old work in February but she kinda freaked out so that one only lasted days. Anyways I haven't really had very much relationship experience but to be fully honest it's hard for me to find women I like. I am told I am attractive by every girl I know and I have grown to the point where I am fairly confident of myself but not cocky. I am looking for not something too serious (I mean I don't want to get too intimate too quick) and I despise the idea of a one night stand. I look around at all the girls my age and they are all so shallow as in that they don't do things besides makeup and they are just looking to fool around. For me it's hard to meet girls and perhaps I have too high of standards but I want be looking for girls that are interested in me for me and that I don't have to court and impress because I am not into playing bs games. As for my friends it's kind of a weird situation. I still have all my friends but I never see them or really hang out with them anymore. About a month and a half ago I got really stressed out about being unhappy about school, and no relationships, my friends, and work that I decided I needed a change to stay sane. So I got a job a server (a good change). And that's pretty much it. As for my accomplishments I want to learn to play the guitar (better), play in a band, take picture (I love photography), jog/lift weights, and go outside and hike/camp. My problem is that I either don't have the motivation to do these things (mostly), I don't have time (second), and I don't want to do them alone (band/camping/hiking). Can anyone offer me some advice about what I should do? I am trying to stay positive and I was wondering if anyone could see the void in my life that I feel but can't precisely see?