This feels weird to post about, but I'm doing it anyway. Ugh. The smilies keep looking at me. is particularly annoying when you're trying hard to think. I've posted before about having a neurological problem yadda yadda whine whine. I'm constantly trying to divide the "real" things from my dreams. REM (Dream state) pops up at odd intervals - & not the way most people experience it. It happens while I'm awake. Usually while I'm performing menial, non-thought provoking tasks ... & sometimes when I am doing important things. It's very annoying. A handful of people with this same problem get their minds all tangled up in thinking there are aliens, ghosts ... I suppose those are legitimate beliefs. We all believe in what we percieve to be true. Anyway, I try hard to remain as conscious of what's going on around me as possible, but I can't stop my mind from thinking so off it goes. I'm a very rational person in that I demand consideration of variables in order to reach conclusions. It's interesting to see how intensely my experiences and little snippets of what's going on in the world around me incorporate themselves into these waking dreams. I call them visions because I'm awake & my eyes are open but even though I may be performing a task I'll be seeing something else. I can remember performing the task, but not in good detail at all. The vision, however, is quite clear & typically feels like I've reached some great conclusion or is very emotionally charged. When I review what I've been physically doing, there are sometimes strange errors - the phenomenon is called automatic behavior. It's a big reason why I don't drive any more. So earlier I was doing the dishes & drifted off into one of these waking dreams. It felt like an epiphany. In it I was making a statement to publish online about the emotional climate of the US & how it indicates what events lay on the horizon. I can't remember all the details any more but I do remember thinking about how often people argue about politics at family gatherings & how emotionally detatched people seem to be from neighbors in their community - especially to those with differing views. I also thought about the implications of the internet & the availability of information to those that are unsatisfied with the social/political state in the US. How many people find it difficult or impossible to find a social niche within their community? I do seriously wonder about that. A cold, detatched social climate breeds revolution. It takes many generations, but that's where it leads. I know there are warm people in this country - but are they willing to consider or even reach out to anyone outside their social circle? Reading through the asylum I usually see posts about people confused or in need & respondants tell 'em to fuck the world. We do that. I guess it's because we're used to it. Anyway ... when the vision thing was happening there was a timeline of events & everything was so methodical. I'm tired & I waited too long to try to write it down so I can't really recall anything but a collection of thoughts. I guess the jist of it was that many societies on earth appreciate their country & culture but the US is falling into a decline that can lead to a revolution unless appropriate action is taken. Wish I could remember it better. I used to write this stuff down more often, but things have changed & I'm no longer in the habit. Anyone else get odd daydreams that seem to demand or fortell something great?