After a week of barely talking (giving her plenty of space, and only seeing each other once, (I took her lunch yesterday, ate at her office, and when I told her I had to go she sort of did a disappointed whine, and when we hugged it seemed she didn't want to let go) Tonight we are going out, I'm taking her to the cheesecake factory, we're going to eat, and head to a movie. She wants to see an action flick this time... SO I have to figure out what to see, Probably Casino Royale i'm guessing. She asked me not to buy her a birthday gift because she hadn't gotten one for me, but I was told by friends and her friends to do it anyway, I printed a picture of her and her baby and put it in the Scrapbook that I got her that she had commented on wanting when we went to the mall. I also printed another picture of the baby and put it in there... I tried to get a picture of the two of us together but never pulled one off, thats what I really wanted to put in the book Anyway, I wrapped it and wrote some small stuff on the front of the wrap.... She'll either Melt or be mad, I'm hoping Melt. Last night our AIM conversation was a little better, more smilies like she usually uses.... and just an overall better tone, and when we talk on the phone, it's a better tone now as well, Lunch was akward at first, but she would just look at me and smile... her heartwarming smile... that smile girls give you when they are thinking about you or like you... kind of like the mamoru face without the hand in the way, lol... i dont know how to explain it. Tonight will be the hard one, but she seems really excited about this, and i'm just a basket of nervousness up until i pull into her driveway to pick her up. then it's insta calm. I think I really want this, I want to be that "doctor" that mends her wounds from her daughters biological father.... I think thats the path I've been put on because thats what feels right when I think about it and pray about it and so on (yes i have a small religeous side) so... we'll see.