I just cant figure out what the hell i am doing in my life. I feel like i am failing at everything and i cant have fun at all or be happpy because of all the things that are running in my head. The main thing that is bothering me now is that i feel one of my closest friend and me are drifiting apart. The only thing is i dont put the effort to see her because i get jealous or feel horrible when i see her because couple of months back i asked if we could be in a relationship but she doesnt want that. she just wants to stay friends. when i first met her which was 4 months ago we were always together at work and after work but as time has gone on i see her less and less and talk to her less. she has found more guys to hang out with. she invites me everywhere she goes but i still feel like a third wheel or just think that i dont even need to be there. the thing is since i have no chance with her it makes things worse. i think about her all the time but there is nothing thats gonna happen. i want to forget her and find someone else but i cant do that. i work with her so its not like i can avoid her and i dont think thats the best solution. Plus its hard for me to find someone else so i dont know what to do. i just wish i could stop thinking about her all the time.