Ok to start of with a little background info I am 20 years old and never really had a girl friend or even much contact with girls out side my family before I moved out a little over a year ago. Now about 6 months ago I moved in with some friends. Two of them being girls I know who happen to be dating each other. Well as things come to pass I kind of grow a crush on one of them. About 4ish months ago the other one goes out of town for a week... So joking around a little I made some hints and stuff at the girl I had a crush on. Well it went a lot better then I might have hoped and we ended up sending most the week messing around... All fine and good, But after that I started to grow more and more feelings for her... me messed around a little more from time to time but her girl friend started to get pissed at me even being near her so I backed off and just stayed in my room... But over the time I have just want'ed to be with her more and more... About a month ago they moved out (kicked out, but that is another story). And my need has gotten a lot stronger... I have talked to her online (she is in the area and I see her at lest once a week at work (we work at the same place right now, but she got a new job so will be quiting soon)... So I told her how I feel (online about a week ago) and we got to talking about it... She told me that she is in love with a guy and craves to be with him, but he is in a bad place right now and there is no way they can support each other so she is going to stay with her girl friend right now... Now part of me wishs this is me as it kind of sounds like me... But if it was me why not just say it right out...? She'd not tell me who she is talking about... But anyway. I have just be getting more and more depressed and frustrated not being able to really be around her or hold her in my arm (I come from a vary close family (Such as hugs, sleeping on top of eachother near the fire place. no sex or anything like that) and having such as lack of human contect has been hard for me on top of this as well...)... I can't get her out of my head and I don't know what to do... Any helpful ideas anyone? Oh ya if it matters she is 20 as well.