I am not really sure what to say, but I feel I need to get a few things off my chest. Im just not coping. When I was 17 my dad commited suicide. I found him. I was very close to my dad, we were best friends. I changed that day. I had to grow up very quickly and help my mum bring my 2 younger sisters up. I fell into a depression. To cut a long story short, I now take zoloft. I have a boyfriend who I have been with for nearly 8 years. I am now 26, nearly 27. My bf runs his own succesfful business. He spends all of his time there, and doesnt come home often. I feel abandoned and very alone. I am not coping with life. I feel I have no one to talk to, I feel so alone. My mum has a new partner, a woman. My sisters have each other, they are very very very close. I try and talk to my bf, but he doesnt understand. So I get nasty and say nasty things. He doesnt deserve this. He just takes it, never ever yells back or puts me down. I have started to hurt myself. Like I will pick until I bleed or it hurts so I cant bear it. Im scared and I dont know what to do. Sorry I know this is all over the place, I just dont know how else to put it.