SRS This is the wrong time of the year for me to feel like this...

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  1. psykosis

    psykosis Go placidly amid the noise and the haste

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    Tis the season for happiness and love, spending time with friends and family, loved ones, those closest to your heart. For sharing in holiday cheer, and enjoying the company of each other. Tis the season, but I'm just not feeling it. I'm really depressed right now. Things are not going so well. My furnace died, my garage door died, and my car died. I'm looking at $500 for the car repair, probably $200 or so for the garage, and who knows how much the furnace might cost. My wife and I make enough to get by, to pay our bills and go out every now and then, but not enough to ever get the things we want. I so badly want a car I'm passionate about, but right now I think I'd settle for a car that is just trouble-free. I know that it should get better, that I should keep my chin up, and all the other cliche's that go along with this kind of thing, but they are of no comfort to me right now. I guess I'm lucky to have a decent house and a beautiful and loving wife to come home to each night, but I feel so run down and beaten by life right now I can hardly take it. I look to each day as a start of something new, something better, but it feels like each day is the same as the last, and that I'm never going to gain any ground. I only have one shot at this life, and I'm trying to make the most of it, but I feel like a failure in so many ways. I've never really done anything great (graduating college maybe). I've made my parents proud, and that makes me feel good, but I just feel like I've let myself down, and anyone else around me. I just don't know what to do. I think I might be on the right path, but I don't know if I'll ever get where i want to be. I hate that I keep lowering my dreams, or keep pushing my deadlines in life back. I don't know. Maybe it's just the weight of all the things gone wrong in the past week or so, or maybe the cold and dreary weather that accompanies MI winters. I guess I just needed to get this off my chest, and don't have anywhere better to put it. I'm not looking for guidance or support, just a place to let it out. I thank OT for being that place. Anyway...

    I just don't know.

    *sigh*
     
  2. PuppyCat

    PuppyCat O.T. Mom

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    :hsughc: I don't know about that...I am old, wiser, more wealthy, thinner and it is still rough. Life is not a continuous canoe ride down the River of Happy, I wish it were.
     

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