SRS Thinking of killing myself as a way out of debt...

Discussion in 'On Topic' started by Albert Eduardo, Jul 13, 2005.

  1. Things have just been what seems unbearable. This is the first time in my life I've actually been serious about comitting suicide.

    I still owe 9 grand on a piece of shit econobox that's about to die out on me. My license gets revoked Monday, I'm failing all of my shitty classes to get a diploma. :ugh: :ugh: :ugh: :ugh: :ugh: :ugh: :ugh: :ugh: :ugh: :ugh: :ugh: :ugh: :ugh: :ugh:

    My license gets revoked next Monday. :rofl:

    My life insurance I get through my mother's company only covers $20,000 in the case of an accident. :x:

    That would easily pay for a burn n' urn plus my car loan, hell even my mom's credit card debt. :coold:

    I just burned bridges with my shitbag of a brother, which my family is completely bent on. :wtf:


    I'm socially shunned and ignored, hell people even hate me. :cjerk:

    I know it's all about sticking through and not being a selfish pussy. But, really. I see that going on much further is just going to be completely inane


    Feedback on this please, even if it's a sceme to set up a self-destructive non-vehicular accident.


    Thanks


    -Andy
     
  2. beanolo

    beanolo It does a body good!!!1

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    So basically you fucked up your own life, and now are too pussy to deal with the outcome.
     


  3. Pretty much. Why spend the rest of my life in hell? Why not just quit while I'm ahead?
     
  4. So let me guess (being the typical OT'er)

    You'll be nice enough to tell me how to knock myself off and make it an 'accident'. Right?
     
  5. AntiSocialism

    AntiSocialism New Member

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    Woah.. Beanolo, be a bit understanding. Don't act like you've never been upset before because you know you have or you wouldn't be here.

    Albert, money and debt is materialistic. A loss of human life is never, NEVER going to fix that type of thing. With burial costs and everything else, as well as your family's obvious distress at losing you, you could make more debt for everyone... especially emotional debt. That's something that can't be paid off. Calm down and take a step back from everything for a moment. It can be pressure filled and confusing, and yes... it's just about waiting it out. Work on it a bit at a time, things like this don't suddenly get better. But they'll never get better if you don't at least try.
     
  6. Are the bill collectors going to haunt me in the afterlife too?

    Seriously. I've been the least of their thoughts. Even if it does stress them. Fuck them. They've seriously done shit for me.
     
  7. I think it'd be a great way of showing my gratitude for constantly being shit on. But, that's a whole other story.
     
  8. I've been working on this for over a year. And, I'm at the same place where I was.
     
  9. Fucking nowhere
     
  10. AntiSocialism

    AntiSocialism New Member

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    Think about what you owe to yourself then. You owe yourself a chance to get out into the world, get married, have kids... Get that "shitty" diploma that you obviously care about. Even if your family acts like they don't care... They have to, it's a rule, I assure you ;) They love you even though it seems like no one cares. I'll tell you right now, I do care. Otherwise, I would not have responded to this thread. So, your family can fuck themselves, but think about you too, hmm?

    Money is something that I understand, I've always understood. I've never done without because my parents are that damn good with making it stretch, but I know that it gets very, very tight sometimes. It seems like it's all going under, but believe me... If you don't give the problem time to fix, it won't be able to. Nothing is ever worth dying for. A year's not so very long a time, hmm? Give it more time, work at it more. Don't just give up, please?
     
  11. I'm 20 years old. A few more years and I'm totally fucked on ever finding somebody. Who wants a brokeass anyways?
     
  12. Darrin

    Darrin Eat. Sleep. Arrest People.

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    im sorry but suicide is the most selfish thing in the world.. all you do is hurt those around you at the expense of wasting ure own life.



    no matter how low i got i would never comitt suicide.
     
  13. AntiSocialism

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    Money isn't the only thing people look for in a person! Maybe if you're trying to attract a diva who's just going to waste your money anyway, sure. But not if you're looking for someone to care about you in particular.

    My father had his back broken while struggling at a minimum wage job in construction. He had 5 kids at home and a wife trying to work just as hard. She didn't give up on him because he was "broke" in more than a few ways. Dedication is what you're looking for in that case, and someone paying attention to your bank account isn't going to be there for the long run.

    20 years and you're fucked?... I guess you've not gotten out much. My grandparents got married in their 60s. My brother? Got married at 26. Don't put so much stress on yourself. You'll make it and you'll do it happily, in time. Brokeass is how you see yourself, struggling, hard working man is how someone else might see you.
     
  14. It just all fucking pointless


    Absolutely fucking pointless.
     
  15. johan

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    You're going to off yourself over 9K??? That's nothing. Peanuts.
    Let em revoke your licence. Who gives a shit. It's just a licence. Drop out of school.

    You have a golden opportunity to let all your so-called responsibilities slide right off your shoulders and start ENJOYING life.

    Ya you heard me right. START ENJOYING your fucking life. Got that?

    So many people graduate, get a nice job pulling down $95K per year, think they're about to start living "the life".... and then choke it all down with a hefty mortgage, big ass car loans on a fancy luxomobile, a spoiled trophy wife that looked great on the dance floor, but once they got hitched she transformed from a testarossa into a pinto (read: add 40 lbs, exchange stilletos and whispery silk stockings for support hose and cellulite).

    Throw in two kids, and now they're REALLY locked into a lifestyle that they didn't particularly want.

    You've been set free. You've been forcibly ejected from your previous lifestyle which wasn't working for you anyway. So what. Dump it. Who needs it.

    If your family truly doesn't give a fuck about you...great! One less thing to worry about as you start exploring the world.

    You've just saved yourself a lot of $$$ on excrable postcards, stamps and useless long-distance phone calls from Stuttgart (Germany) letting your mom know you're ok and the beer is great over here. Spend that money on condoms instead.


    Why don't you hitchhike around America, living in rooming houses and staying just long enough to get a taste of each city? Talk to people. Hear their stories. You'll become a philosopher and poet in no time.

    Or how about working small jobs in produce markets and supermarkets? Hit the gym and groom yourself well and start bagging all the local cougars that come through there.

    Or you could live in the student district, walking to school each day wearing bohemian clothes and bagging the new freshman class each year. (Learn to play the guitar. A dozen or so chords, some basic picking and some hoarse voiced singing should do the trick)

    You don't need a car. You don't need much money. You don't even need the disdain of your family.

    Look in the mirror. You've got all you need right there. Two strong legs to carry you around. Two hands to fashion your place in the world.

    Stop talking nonsense about offing yourself over a measly 9K. Chuck that lifestyle and start discovering the life you're missing out on. Now.
     
  16. Ichabod Crane

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    When the insurance company finds this post, your family will be getting $0.00 from your policy.
     
  17. I wouldn't want to live that either.
     



  18. Good for them. Bottom line is that I just don't want to deal with any of this. All of this, me, I hate the fucker I see in that mirror every day. It's all for nothing, absolutely fuicking nothing.,
     
  19. AntiSocialism

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    It will all work out Albert, just give yourself a chance, hmm?
     
  20. I've been giving myself a chance for the past year or so. It's just not progressing man
     
  21. johan

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    Well, I tried. Guess he doesn't want to listen.
     
  22. AntiSocialism

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    Sometimes we all have to do things we don't want to deal with and it's not a matter of wanting to.. It's a matter of having to. Take it a minute at a time. That fucker in the mirror? That's someone who deserves your respect, he's made it this far, hasn't he? It's not for nothing! It's for everything.. For everything you will eventually find in life, even if it's hard to wake up in the morning and search for.
     
  23. I've been dealing with shit for a long time. I'm just tired of dealing with it. It's exhausting, and absolutely pointless.
     
  24. AntiSocialism

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    Your advice was great Johan-- I even liked it myself, honestly. Woo! I'm now going to go learn how to play the guitar. He'll think about it and he'll be okay, it takes a lot more than that to drive a person past the point. Thanks :)

    A year isn't long enough though... You've got to give it a lifetime.
     

  25. A lifetime... Of this?! Fuck this. Fuck it all to high hell.
     

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