I do believe in God and that he has a path for us all, basically everything happens for a reason. What I cannot find out is an explanation, over my entire life, ( more than 20 years ) something has continually gave a reason to destroy all relationships with male or female I have ever felt like having. I have no mother because that relationship was destroyed when I was little. More than 8 times relationships with girls have been destroyed by intervening men or reasons that I cannot seem to understand why me. I have come to a point where I want to just seclude myself from the world forever it's like dying over every time another relationship is ruined. I was once suicidal and it is starting to come back and I fear it alot I have no idea what to do. In no way am I obese or have any reason to be depressed and girls are interested in me but something always happens that one reason that ruins it. Life isn't about relationships I realize but it sure as hell is hard when your friendships and relationships always get ruined. I just don't know what to do I guess and I am just ranting here.