Theres no real way to escape it. Its just too depressing for me to be this way. How long does one have to suffer this before he is relieved of this? No one to turn to when I need to let out whatever emotions that I want to let out, but cant. No one I know who cares or even can help. Yearning to end this all, and to find love again, strong, emotional love, not physical. I want to be able to open up to someone again, someone who can listen and I can share happiness with. I tasted love and I want it again, more then anything I can comprehend. I dont want this feeling of being alone anymore, I never wanted this. Why does love have to be a double-edged sword, protecting you from pain, but at the same time, can flip right around and cut your heart to pieces? I will never understand why these things happen, all I know is that its painful, more then I can understand. All I want is to be in love and have love back with me, to feel comfort. Is that honestly too much to ask of my life? Or is this going to be an un-ending mental struggle until I die? what the fuck is wrong with me?