Okay, brace yourself for a long-ish and complicated story... Last month, my boyfriend of 7 (somewhat rocky) months officially broke up. He told me that he somewhat had a thing for my best friend. I was really hurt when he told me all this. [And he told me this BEFORE we broke up (one month before official).] Even though we were probably not meant to be anyway, because at about 3.5 months, we had broken up once and I did it that time. But we got back together because I succumbed to the wrong reasons I suppose? And the last month of our relationship was because I wanted to still be with him, but it was obvious he was just losing interest. I was in denial and cried a lot. Right before we broke up, he said that he WAS REALLY NOT INTERESTED IN HER. That's what he said. But then, i find out through my best friend it seems that he's been trying to make advances onto her. (he got her a xmas gift, calls and tries to hang out, and they did once...with another friend too but without me behind my back) A while ago, I probably would've killed myself if I found that out. But now, I just simply feel like shit. On top of that, I've always had low self-esteem and been a cutter. What the hell? There's a little more detail to this story. But my best friend Stef seems to like the attention he gives her because she kept talking to him on MSN after fully knowing that I was really sad about it. Oh yes she KNEW he liked her. OH yes she KNEW that I was crushed about it. But yeeah the present-business on christmas, and the wanting to hang out with him, seems really odd to me. OOOOH i can barely organize my thoughts on this.... What's your take on this? Is it wrong?? Am i just worrying/spazzing/bleeding over something that i have absolute no control over and should just accept the fact that I've been dumped for my best friend?? I forgot to add that Stef is a loyal friend and would not do something like that and go for him. (She has no interest in him whatsoever...and I take her word for it.) BUT, it bugs the hell out of me. What makes me mad...is really HIM actually. And a little part of me is mad that she partially admitted to somewhat leading him on. Although "leading him on" was not the term used, it was more like..."i didn't want to be mean...and hurt his feelings..."...and she likes the 'attention feed' i suppose. But why does he have to be him? There are tons of other guys she can get her ego boost from.