Hello Offtopic!!! before I start I just wanna say how great this community is and how I'm glad to be apart of it now currently looking for a avatar but its all good. Im 19 Ok here is my story, Ive been friends with this girl for like 3 years and in those 3 years we have dated and officially been a couple. Unfortunately things got rocky about 2 months ago but we had broken up long before that. Well heres my situation, This girl was my first love... I stayed away from any other girls or any "bad" situations even when I wasnt officially with her. Ive had strong feeling for her for the longest time but after she kind of killed our "best friend relationship" about a two months ago my feelings have changed... I've since dated two other girls who were awesome but could not take the hint that I was just looking for a good friend... What I have learned since my departure of my 3 year friend is that I don't feel that I need another person in my life. I believe in order to live a happy life with another is to be satisfied with your own life. Well heres where it gets a little tricky... My best friend or my ex has been contacting me and tells me shes ready to begin a relationship... She sounds dead serious but I don't really have feelings for her anymore... Should I just push her away? Let these feelings she has for me die? Tell her I dont really "love" her? I mean Ive been hanging out with her for the past 3 days and Im starting to feel scared of the rejection that might come by again... All I want in life is a simple girl who wont cheat and be faithful. I'm not sure If I trust her... OT what to do? My feeling seem like there still there for her but im not sure... I know when I'm drunk my feeling come back but ugh.... thats only If im drunk around her... Shes currently on meds for depression and anxiety... I'm not really looking into starting a new relationship even though it would be nice... eh I'm a little lost at the moment and wondering what to do... She told me that "she doesnt want any other "guy" in her life... and out of all the guys shes dated she never really feels comfortable. She also seems like she has a really hard time commiting and lose interest fast in relationships. She has a really bad past but I was willing to forgive her and put it in the past but she cant seem to get over it so tahts one thing that always held us from a solid relationship... do you think im just her comfort zone?