background, I was diagnosed with MS (multiple sclerosis) last october. went on the new treatment Tysabri for a few months until it was pulled from the market by the FDA. Been on no treatment for the last few months, just keeping myself fit and eating well to try to keep my body strong. I've had one attack since I got off Tysabri that effected my vision and hearing, but those symptoms are pretty much gone now. I had my brain MRI as a checkup yesterday, and my Dr. got the results today. I had an appt. scheduled for august 3rd, but they called me just now to tell me that things look worse than they expected, and that I should come in friday to discuss getting on a new treatment. This is bad, because A) I thought I was doing well and B) because Tysabri was pulled from the market because people who were taking a combination of Tysabri and Avonex (betaseron) were dying from a very rare CNS infection. I was hoping that Tysabri would come back soon, because it's been shown to be the safest of all the MS treatment (when used alone) with the lowest occurance of side effects. I really don't want to have to deal with those side effects, or having to inject myself once a week. Tysabri was a once a month infusion that I went in and got an IV for. I fucking hate needles, the prospect of shooting myself up once a week makes me shudder. Plus the host of side effects are shitty for all the alternative (immuno-modifier) treatments range from generally shitty to downright fucked. Even better, by going on one of the OTHER treatments I risk my ability to later go back on Tysabri, since the combination of Tysabri and an immuno-modifier is what causes PML (the disease that killed the people in the research groups). So, no matter how good I feel right now, no matter how much stronger I feel, and no matter that I'm in the best shape of my life right now, my goddamn immune system won't stop eating my central nervous system. yay.