We went to an army base today to prepare for our rifle qualification and in my two years in the Corps and of the six, three major, rifle ranges I've been to none compares to this reserve base in the middle of nowhere by the army. I love the Corps. I love the comradery. I love the training. I love my battle dress uniform. I love my dress blues. I love the history. I lovi e the weapons, the tactics, the vehicles, and I love my rifle. I love the weeks of staying in the field and still shaving every single day and blousing my boots in the middle of the night just to make a head call because I'm a Marine and only those army bitches, the air force brats, and the navy fags would be unset. I love the foreign countries I've seen. I love the work I've done and I love the people I have met as a result of being an US Marine and the people I have met as a result of saying I'm an US Marine and the girls I have fucked as a consequence of being an US Marine. That said I don't want to be in the Corps anymore. I'm tired and fed up of being a Marine. Of being told my benefits but realize much of it I can't use. Of knowing that many I've come in contact all want out. That a great majority of us do the same shit day in and day out without thanks or rewards while some of us do a lot more every day in a war zone. I don't know how to feel that the only bankable asset that I have as an United States Marine, the tip of the spear, is the idea that somehow I'm magically imbued with super human powers and that the Corps is hardcore and tough and that we're professional killers held to a higher standard just because even though it's not true. I'm tired of being told I'm going to Iraq every month but not ever get to go. I'm tired of being on the bus all packed to go to New Orleans for three months and not go. I'm tired of not having money to train for something. I'm tired of only being issued 9000 rounds of ammunition this fiscal year for 200 Marines. I really do love the Corps but I'm tired of being in the Corps. I wish the Corps can get more love. I also bitch for the sole reason of bitching.