I am a little frustrated. Most of the time I feel good about myself. Sometimes I feel great. Yesterday I suddenly had feelings of complete worthlessness. Not just a little doubt. Truly without value as a human being - as a man. They are very old feelings from as far back as when I was a kid. I'm frustrated because they come from NOWHERE. Sometimes I have an insecurity about X quality in myself or Y quality in myself. Insecurities are very specific: "I think I am not <strong/fast/smart/cool/sexy> enough." Then I get over it. Laugh it off. Shrug it off. But in this case there is nothing specific. There was absolutely no trigger. It just happened. Everything is normal and then all of a sudden in the next minute I am pathetic - weak - unfit - worthless as a man. Last night after my mom's birthday it hit me like a train. It came out of the blue. Right now I am only about 60% back to normal. I am sure it will go away in the next couple of days (or after my next workout). But... What the fuck.