so i started at a new place this week. i'm one of those people who might have undiagnosed social anxiety, which is triggered in only very particular situations. case in point: i usually have a pretty good time with close friends but sometimes I have to 're-break' the ice all over again. For some reason, at my new place I've barely said two words to some of the people there. my voice comes out really quiet, and I get uncomfortable and laugh nervously. our first lunch there i just kept staring at my water bottle until someone asked me something and i had to repeat it two times, and everyone kinda looked at me funny afterward. anyway, they're good people but today i had my lunch upstairs away from them. i don't want to come off as an ass or anything like that. can people tell when someone is sorta shy vs arrogant? also, today while doing our thing I could see my female worker watching me. i've only said hi to her once and avoided her most of the time but she keeps giving those faces whenever i see her. kinda like how a caregiver would try to encourage someone retarded. I'm not sure how to take this. anyway, thanks for reading.