I noticed several people here had heterosexual relationships prior to coming out or dating the same sex. I'm wondering what others' experiences with their first gay relationship were as compared to their other relationships. Here's mine: I only had one girlfriend, but this was no accident. I refer to it as my "last-ditch" attempt at heterosexuality. While she was more than a friend to me, I never felt the way I thought I would feel in a relationship. I broke it off and 6 months later came out. I had never tried to meet any gay people before coming out. Thus I never had the experiences that some have, having relationships before coming out. Thus, I was sort of prevented from meeting or dating anyone until that point. When I got involved with my first (and only) boyfriend, I finally found what I had been missing. Unfortunately, this empty feeling I had for my adolescent life from not having a relationship had snowballed, and I found myself euphoric at the fact that I was happy and finally in a relationship with a man. Things finally felt right to me, and it was such a great feeling. I quickly fell in love and ended up being so naive that I got really hurt in the end. I really feel that my reaction was because it was something I that I had been waiting for, for such a long time, that once I had it I really just in a sense lost touch with reality. I'm over him now, and I certainly am grateful for what I learned from that relationship... but it was really a terrible time in my life in the period after it ended. That naturally comes with all serious relationships, I know, but I feel like it was worse for me because I had wanted for so long to be able to be in that type of relationship. Anyway... just something I've been thinking about recently. Others' experiences?