When I don't drink I have no desire to drink. Meaning, I can go weeks without a drink of alcohol and I'm fine. But the times I do drink I tend to over do it. And I don't just mean I get slightly drunk...I mean I go all out and just black out. Mind you, when I say black out I don't mean I'm stumbling around mumbling. I just don't remember anything. From what people have told me I seem normal, maybe a little drunk....but I never remember anything. Also, when I get that drunk the following day I'm in a shitty mood and depressed. Not hungover, as I don't feel sick, just depressed about everything. This really sucks because I used to enjoy drinking, getting just that right amount of drunk and having a great time. It went from that to now where I don't have any control when I do drink. Really no point to this thread....just felt like making it.