SRS so, the gym is making me crazy and I'm basically a narcissist

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  1. black jesus

    black jesus OT Supporter

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    I've been lifting for about 4-years now. Recently I've been looking for way to interpret situations so that it makes me feel bad. If I notice that someone is waiting for a bench or equipment that I'm using I'll apologize, then pick up all my shit and leave that side of the gym. It probably makes these people feel bad, but I feel that its more important that I make myself feel like shit at their expense.

    Typically by about 45-minutes of the hour I plan to lift I've made myself depressed enough that I'm out of energy and I skip the last lift, sometimes skip the cardio, then go to my car and I feel like I could cry if I weren't a cyborg.

    Is this really, really bad?

    The only problem with general narcissism is that I have incredibly low self esteem...I suck, I know it, and its caused me to become a hermit.
     
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    See my post in the other thread. This is a PERFECT example of what I'm saying. Hope it helps you make sense of what's happening.
     
  3. black jesus

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    I'm just going to post in the other thread. Mods can delete this shit.
     

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