i seem to be falling for a girl that is everything i dont like she is beautiful could lose a few pounds but still beautiful, she does however smoke and i recently found out she has had 2 abortions..... for some reason i havent started running away yet? i for some reason have begun attracting girls alot faster and more often lately, of the better looking ones that a skinier with less problems and things i dont like why does it seem i want this one. I really hate smoking and the two abortions are kind of crazy..... but then there are times when i tell myself i dont need anyone and i should be alone, i am suppose to be alone and there is noone out there for me. Everyone tells me i can do better no matter which girl it is i get involved with. One of the hottest girls at school talks to me and is a good friend, people notice us spend time together and tell me every bad thing about her and tell me i can do better. i need to calm down though lol my life has been moving 10000mph and i dont know how im keeping up </big ass rant> i have no idea who i can trust of all the "friends" i seem to have, but it feels good just being able to do more than think it by myself what would OT do?