i dont know its kinda weird. after high school ended i just started losing focus on everything. im 19 right now and it feels like every time i try to do something i half ass it and end up not pulling thru in anything. whether it be school or just a simple goal like learning to play a guitar. after high school ive had 2 nightmare relationships which kind of made me feel like ive lost all emotions towards anything now. i have alot of friends from high school that i still hang out with and everything but i just cant accomplish anything. i feel like everything ive tried ive failed. in high school i was not like this. i would put in extra practice hours for basketball and volleyball. but now its like eh whatevers. also when i do not like something but i know i have to do it, i end up not doing it because i didnt want to. like i feel as if i just have nothing to strive for anymore. i feel so pathetic. honestly if i didnt have friends like the ones i do now, i wouldnt be anywhere in this world. have any of you guys had something like this? how do u overcome something. i really want change. ive told myself that i wanted to change but i never pulled thru because i dont know how to change. my whole life, my parents have supplied me with basically anything that i needed. im not blaming them but i guess because of that i really do not know how its like to really earn something. i really dont want to be like this because i know in life i will not get anywhere like that. im grateful to have the thigns that i have but i just feel like a failure in general lol.