This is going to be long so sorry I just felt the need to describe every scenario I don't know what it is, but there are always one of three things that happen when I have a conversation with a person. Usually with a guy, but it happens with girls too. I'm pretty sure its me and not the people I talk to. First off, someone will approach me, for example at work, and they will start off a descent conversation, perhaps something we can both relate to. I don't know what it is, but I think I come off as a bitch, maybe my answers are really frank or something, but after a few minutes of talking he will start to look really awkward and start mumbling or just generally look really nervous and sometimes even stutter. Then we will never talk again and simply say hi or bye, or say nothing but glance at one another in a really awkward way. Maybe I'm over analyzing, I don't know... So if that doesn't happen we will have a conversation and thoughts will be racing through my head, like what should I say next? I think she/he thinks I'm being too quiet. I think they feel like I'm uninterested and perhaps I'm judging them, but I'm really not. I just don't know what to say. Which will eventually result in the same thing, general awkwardness between me and the other person. Finally, if I manage to get past the shyness and the awkwardness, I try to act like a little bit more talkative, but it comes off little bit too strong and they think I'm some sort of completely strung out party girl, or just a dumb blond type of girl (even though I'm not blond) This is why now I've just decided to stay quiet and never talk, and also I've become very bitter towards people, I can't trust anyone and just steer clear. my friend of 5 years has even told me its almost brutal watching me make conversation with someone I just met I really suck at first, second, third impressions. It takes probably a good two years maybe even more, for someone to get to know me. I don't have many friends, one of them is my cousin who is my best friend who knows me better than anyone else in the world. I also talk to my brother, but my two other friends really don't know know me very well, and sometimes talking to them can be a drag I just felt the need to say all this, does anyone feel the same way ?