FRK So I learned something new about myself last night.

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  1. Synner

    Synner New Member

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    Since I first started having sex, I was always submissive. I just took it as my nature, and chose not to argue with instinct.

    Apparently, I'm not as submissive as I thought. A....friend..and I were talking last night, things went where they always do, and jokingly, she called me Master. Something clicked....the conversation went for about 2 more hours online, then another hour on the phone, and things just felt natural, for the first time in I don't even know how long. I guess this is just a suppressed side of me I hadn't opened up to, yet. Whatever the case may be, that girl has ruined every casual encounter I've had in life so far......nothing compares to last night.

    It's almost 7:30 in the morning, and I can't sleep, so I felt like sharing. :o
     
  2. ACLdestroyer

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    So she came over to your place or what?
     
  3. Synner

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    Due to sleep deprivation, I now realize this needs further explanation.

    She's in Washington State. Nothing physical has happened, nothing will for quite some time (I plan on moving out there sometime when it gets warmer)....it's not about the physical aspect of domination, it was just the 4 hours or so that we were talking, and she was obeying everything I said like I was standing there, next to her. I seriously feel like things have opened up a lot in my life, now, and I still haven't even planned on kissing this girl. It's all talk.

    As for anything that happens in any physical encounters, though, it's like starting all over in life as a whole new person. I won't be that submissive, boring person ever again...I think talking to her last night really made me realize who I am.





    I dunno, I'm still running on yesterday's sleep. But this all makes sense to me.
     
  4. Phantom Empress

    Phantom Empress mmmmmm tasty!!!

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    Sounds like your former submission was not your desire to submit, more your fear to embrace making someone else submit to you. Some of the BEST Tops started as bottoms and chaulk up your former self as experience you can draw upon to make you a more effective Top.

    I'm glad you have found your place. Now, don't get too cocky, even as a 'Master', you have to know that you will constantly be a student of Dominance and that your sub is just as much a teacher as theya re YOUR student.
     
  5. BedBunny

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    You just opened a new book, a new chapter. It's nice to have an eye opening experience like that.
     
  6. Synner

    Synner New Member

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    I've never even thought of it like that, in any situation. I'll definitely keep that in mind, thanks.
     

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