...... I woke up this morning gripping my bed, tightly. I wanted to weigh myself. It was not in the plan I set for myself, but it stuck in my head ALL day. I went and stared at the scale for a few minutes, but I did not get on. That piece of shit was CALLING me. I do not have a sponsor in OA, but I need to get one quick. I never had it like this before - now, after weeks of "sobriety" this hits me. I planned to step on a scale again on 8/9/08, and not before that. This shit sucks.