God what a scary word. Long story short, been tied down my entire life. Went to college, had a serious girl, just got off of a restrictive probation, you guys know the bit. So this whole...free and easy thing kind of has me scared. I'm not afraid of people, but it seems like people are a little bit afraid of me. I don't know if I come across as angry or confrontational, but I've been this way my whole life. I'm making every effort to continue trying to make real friends, but I seem to always screw something up along the way. and now, I'm in way over my head. My business I bought is killing me. Now I don't mean to be weird or whatever, but I'm sort of a different type of person. I like to sit and draw and contemplate the end of the world. I'm comming to terms, I guess, with the fact that I'm really not "normal", and might not ever fit into the "normal" mindset. Now this is a serious problem at the moment. I literally scare my customers. I get nothing but the cold shoulder from everyone who talks to me in a professional setting. I'm learning that maybe I'm not my best first impression. In fact, I'm sure I've said before that I feel better introducing myself with something I can do, like playing guitar or spinning fire around my head, than with my actual person. Maybe I'm just a shitty person. Anyway, I'm about done with this business thing. I'm only 21, and I can't do this. I don't want to have to worry about I9's and workmans comp claims. I want to make my money and spend it pursuing my life, not the other way around. I'm currently working 70-80 hours a week, and I stress every day about not being able to even pay my bills. At the same time, this business is a huge opportunity, if I could just strap myself down and do it. Which I won't. I get in the store and get so bummed that I just sit on OT, but I can't afford to pay anyone to work the hours. It's been six months, and things are only getting worse. Now because of the way the contract is written, I'll get to keep all the revenue I made during my tenure as long as the inventory is kept within 10%. If I fail to make the $1000 rent payment on time, the previous owner simply takes the store back with "no further recourse to either party" (which means I'm safe as a motherfucker) So here are my options, please help me. 1. Find an employee, try to find 2-3 grand monthly in business in a saturated market, and hope it stays afloat until...fucking eternity I guess. 2. Give the Store back, and keep my 6k profits this month. a. Use that 6k to pay off my 2k credit bills, continue to live in omaha ne, and let a crazy ex gf move in with me. find a job to keep until august, then go back to school for sound and lighting tech. 1. Don't let crazy girl move in, and continue paying $700 a month for a 2bd (can't find anyone, I've looked for 3 months) b. say fuck my lease, peace out of omaha and live somewhere nice and warm until I go to school 3. The Good One a. Use the 6k, put 1500 in an account here in the states, and travel europe until either the money runs out or it hits august and I can go back to college. That is barring me finding somewhere I fit in well and can pursue the things I want to pursue. I know it's stupid not to pay off my debt, but goddamn I only live once, and it'll be here when I get back (if.). My situation is weird, but has anyone got any advice?