OKAY.. here goes.. Two of my counsilors, my doctor, my mother and teachers at the alternative school are like the CBG police.. Okay .. I can tell the difference between seeing something that isn't there and something that is.. I explained this very well.. They put me on this CBG shit that totally dulls my sences not to mention the amatryptawateverit'scalled.. I have to have clarity if I want to finish my novel series. but it's like they know some how when I haven't taken my meds.. I guess it's because I'm usually a passive, layed back, "Right on" type of person. and when I take the meds, I'm an asshole... I hate it.. I don't think I should have to take my medication if my disorder doesn't mess with in any way, shape, or form my schooling, writing, relationships or anything else life has to throw at me. (Well maybe just a little because I did somehow end up in an Alternative School but not other than that) I have been able to tell the difference between real people and delusion people since I was six. (I mean if I don't know the person that just starts talking to me and they just happen to not have eyes. That is my first clue to ignore) And the episodes? since I was six they have only had to call 911 on me twice. Other than that (out of the many episodes I have each week) I have them under control.. Instead of take the numbing meds, I view the symptoms and the first signs of it and lock myself up until it is over.) But they insist that they understand my mind better than I do.. I HATE THEM AND I WISH THEY WOULD STAY OUT OF MY LIFE.