Well, the girl I'm in love with right now has been a friend for a good while. Lately(over the last couple of months) we've been getting closer and closer and the pet names and all of the other stuff has increased by 10 fold, until a couple of weeks ago she told me she loves me(great huh?) but it sounded like it was still in that friend kind of way, but recently over the last few days shes said it more frequently and it truly sounds like the kind of love I would love from her, and of course I say it back bc I do love her. Im still afraid of this becoming a "I only meant it as friends" scenario. To make matters worse shes always been unappreciated by all of the guys that shes ever dated, and I HATE that with a passion bc shes the most supportive, enthusiastic, affectionate girl Ive ever known in my entire life. Over the course of these last couple of months Ive been constantly telling and showing her through my own actions that she deserves the best and that shes beautiful in more ways than JUST the physical which is what all of these guys focus on. Shes truly amazing , she holds a 3.9 GPA she can speak 4 different languages fluently she won the Girl scout eq. of the Eagle scout badge etc. She's my angel, and just thinking about her makes my shit hole of a life bearable and it becomes perfect when im with her. I dont want it to end up as us being friends only after the stuff we've gone through and done together but I almost know it will(or at least thats what that small voice says , you know the one that analyzes everything past the surface and the first couple of layers). The problem is im prepared to sacrifice my feelings so long as she finally learns/understands that she truly does deserve the best. I guess I really didnt have much of a question after all I just needed to get it out. Damn this really frickin hurts tho, I could see myself being happy with her more so than ive ever been b4 but i guess thats life( but why does it have to hurt so much? and why wont it let me finally be happy?), no i havent discussed any of this with her bc im scared that my biggest fear will come true and ill be loveless again, so im just sitting here agonizing over it.