I am in a state of complete shame, it has been with me for more than a whole day now. I dont know what to do. Its like a crushing feeling in my stomach, I feel worthless and have no power even to raise my voice to normal level when speaking. Im blushed and face is swelling of heat. All of this because I made bad decisions, really bad. The day had come to say goodbye to loved one, we had agreed I would say bye the day before, and the next day I made plans with my parents to meet and help them. Now what I do is I reconsider and in the last minutes get a ticket and follow the loved one to say goodbye when taking off from a different location, so spending one more day together. Now parents are more than pissed of at me, because I didnt come and because I went without telling them. I feel I have no integrity, I cannot make any decisions, and the decision I made, to go, was so wrong my parents do not want to speak to me now. I was going to do minor work around the house. Its like they have no trust for me now, and I am just broken inside. Is there anything I can do to make things better in this situation? I know I should be more confident and maintain integrity when making decisions, and I should keep what I say. I just didnt.