My current girlfriend basically made the first move on me the first night we met, but I made her wait. When we first started having sex she apparently like lesbian porn and throat-fucking. Shit makes me a little sick inside. I guess she could tell i wasn't into it (I love good head and I'll never forget her saying "if im not giving you head at least 3 times a week thats a problem and you need to tell me" yeah right), for me it took away from the sensuality and emotionality. I didn't want to look at this girl like a trash bucket. She never expressed ill-concerns about not watching porn or getting throat fucked as I ceased to do it (she likes a good spanking and some hair-pulling) and actually sobbed out of joy after some good passionate sessions "you really love me"....i guess she had always been fucked, never love-made. i just love coming at the same time while holding her close and tight, wet kisses too. she claims the sex is great, but im starting to wonder if she's just uncomfortable expressing how she truly feels. after a few months of seriously being attached at the hip, i helped her clean her room to move some stuff in and will never forget picking up cum-stained boxers and condom wrappers under her bed. i don't know if she feels like she can't express how she truly wants to have sex, or if she really does love the sex. Especially what I noticed was the amount of head steadily decreasing over the course of our relationship and now that she just moved away, and possibly how into it she is. I've tried to ask her before what sort of things she likes, what feels best, how, etc. and sometimes it seems as if she wants to dodge the question, or at least is in some way embarrassed to speak about it. However, based on how extremely close we are I figure it would be something she could talk about, and I'm starting to think she might not want to say anything because she knows I think getting fucked like piece of shit is just disgusting. I guess I could've done more to "spice" things up before she left, but I thought our sex was great. Random places, positions, quickies here, pull over on the side of the road, pool, ocean. I'm just so attracted to the idea of close-contact, wet, sensual sex, at least if there is any emotion behind it. Again, it is hard for me to imagine that she is sexually satisfied coming from a background of forcefully gagging on penis. It makes me question who she was with before that trained her in that, and if she truly likes being dominated in that way. I guess it's just something that I specifically have a hard time talking with her about. It's part of her psychology that I don't understand. Now she almost looks at me like I'm an asshole if I swing my penis anywhere near her face nonchalantly. Does she not like giving me head, is it my lack of "kinky" in the bed (spanking, hairpulling, etc. not considered kinky) that's a sign of submissiveness? Do I make her feel bad about going down on me or not confident about it because I don't make it a point to force anything? I guess I fear that on some level she is not open about her true sexual nature and it will rear its ugly head as this LDR progresses. The overt sexuality that I've noticed has me worried in her ability to go for an extended period of time without some sort of dominating sexual stimulation. She doesn't really like me giving her head..I guess because she doesn't like the taste of her pussy and I guess it doesn't feel good...though I've gotten her to cum more than once with just my mouth. She just likes going straight for insertion. She HAS to have penis, foreplay doesn't usually last long. But I actually enjoy giving her head, well, I guess the thought of it, again I'd hope she'd tell me if it wasn't necessarily enjoyable but something about the idea of it is nice...making your partner feel good again in a more sensual fashion..but she just seems to want straight penis. No foreplay. Have I worked this up or do I need to buy her a dildo for a present?