I have no idea how to deal with this right now. Some of you already know, but for the ones new to OT I will give some insight. I was raped as a child by my uncle, he was sent to jail when I was 13, and he is now out on parole and has been givin probation. We have to go to court this coming Wednesday, and I am so scared to see him. I have to testify again, and I really do not want to re-live the moment of that terrible event that has screwed me up most of my life. I feel if I see him, I will feel more vunerable then I already am. I just DON'T want to go, and I don't know how to deal with this. I have been to support groups, and counseling, but nothing seems to help me ease the fact that it is not my fault. I know it is not, but just remembering the details is so hard to coupe with. My life was getting better, now it seems to be falling apart again. I got past this once, I just don't know if I can give what little strength I have left to do it again.