I will try to keep this as short as possible. I have been with my gf for 5 years. I turn 24 next week, and she is 22. Things have been good and bad, but for the most part, it seemed like we loved eachother and it seemed like we had a promising future together. We had some tough times, like when she went to Italy for a semester. A few months after she got back, I found out she slept with someone else. For most people, this would be a deal breaker, but not for me...I loved her. I wanted to work it out, I wanted to forgive her. She kept in touch with the guy from Italy occasionally. Even though she promised to end it. I know he sent her a card about a year ago, and as far as I knew, I thought there was no more correspondence. This past August, out of nowhere, my gf went to Ibiza. Although she lied to me and told me she was going upstate with her old aunt and uncle to help them clean out an old house of theirs. I knew her story sounded fishy, but I loved her and I believed her. However, when she didnt call for 3 days, I knew she was up to no good. After some investigation, I found out where she was. She came home, we fought for a week, but then we decided to try and work things out. Last week, while at her apartment, i went to use her laptop. It was already on, but the monitor was blacked out, so when it came to, there was a website already up. It was some italian version of yahoo. And I saw emails to the guy in Italy. Once she noticed that I saw, she ran over and took out her wireless network card. She wouldnt let me read the emails. I was only able to read one, sent from my gf to the guy in italy, which read something along the lines of I miss you and I love you. She said it was just a friend thing, and not to take it seriously. Of course I did, and I changed the password to her account so she could no longer get in. She said it was no big deal, it was only emails and it didnt mean anything. OK, fine, I'll get over it. On this past Saturday, I went to use her computer again, and I found some more goodies. In her My Pictures folder, there was a folder labeled Ibiza, which I thought was strange because she said her camera broke while she was there and none of her pictures came out. When I opened the file, I saw a whole lot of pictures of her in Ibiza with her best friend, and guess who else......yup, the guy from Italy. What's strange is, fine, you want to do things behind my back, no problem, but don't at the same time pick out engagement rings, and make plans for our future together. She has been wanting to get engaged for about a year. She practically threatens me to propose. She says she acts out because we arent engaged yet. I know what I need to do. I need to leave her in the past and move on with my life. But it is easier said than done. I can't imagine my life without her. I have always devoted my life to her in any way I can. And I have been so good to her, I can't imagine why she would feel the need to hurt me the way she has. I guess that is it.