SRS Quitting weed, will the paranoia end?

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  1. Swerve

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    I'm after some advice from people who have stopped smoking weed and who experienced paranoia when they were blazing.

    Little background:

    Smoked weed for around 15 years now, for the first two or three it was just a bit of fun done every other week or so.

    Then I moved in with some friends and we blazed every night, and after around 3 months I started to feel awkward around people when I shouldn't have. Paranoia basically.

    I've continued to just blaze now around once or twice a week, but the paranoia is with me 24/7, I hate it, I know it's all a load of bolloxs, I know it's all just in my head, but it does effect my quality of life.

    Symptoms/shit I have to deal with:

    I now fail at hitting on women because I get super self conscious and so end up coming across as a weirdo.

    I fail at job interviews because of it. Get super anxious and start mumbling incoherently. I try to make up for it, but then appear as aggressive.

    I don't answer the phone to my family or half decent friends. Don't mind when close friends call, but anyone else and I find it's awkward.

    Lol - even when going into a supermarket when I'm stoned I find myself looking into every person's eyes just to check if they are looking at me. When I'm not stoned I just keep an eye out for people I know so that I can avoid them.

    I mean, I enjoy getting blazed, but the paranoia has gotta end. I've stopped before, for around 3 months a couple of times, and whilst i did feel slightly better, this may also have come from the fact that I was also hitting the gym hard and eating real well. Love the endorphins.

    So I was hoping someone could tell me whether the stupid paranoia does infact stop after a longer time of abstinence.

    I would go to a doctor/mental health person, but I don't want any of this to appear on my medical history. I've put up with it for this long, and whilst it does have a big effect on my life, I believe and have always believed I can 'fix it' myself.

    But saying that, if a medical doctor or whatever could give some type of medication and it would stop, I'd grab that chance real fast! I'm a bit clueless about the help I could get if I did speak to a doctor.
     
  2. i killed tupac

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    I dont know about UK, but in the states, med records are confidential

    Anxiety sounds like what you have, and that is a common side effect of smoking pot. And it sounds like you already proved to yourself that when you stopped and started taking care of yourself, you felt better. I would examine, then, why you choose to go back to the weed? Or is it a choice anymore?
     
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    i smoked weed nonstop for 8 yrs and quit cold turkey for over 3 months to find a new job...sure i started again immediately as soon as i could, but i couldnt quit cigs for 3 hrs let alone 3 months
     
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    sounds like you didn't quit at all. And, please read the rules for posting in R2R. I have edited your post for you, but next time, we will have to ban you for a little bit. Thank you.
     
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    My senior year of college I broke up with my "first love" and made friends with a big stoner girl. I smoked incessantly for about a year... buying a $40 bag of northwest pot every week.

    Before this, I was the fraternity social chair, super outgoing, and a friendly guy. But I withdrew socially, locking myself in my big off campus house and played video games, watched movies and browsed porn. My only social outlet was my stoner friend...

    After graduation, I thought I could never quit weed. It had become an ingrained part of me, and I loved the feeling. After 3 months of failing to find a job (in the "roaring 2000s" lol), I moved to Washington DC and went cold turkey. I started working out, eating right, reading books, going to mueseums, and eventually found myself not missing the weed, which just a few months ago i couldn't live without.

    I really, really like the fact I don't hear voices/laughter in white noise (like in a ventilation fan... or the sound of water rushing by when rowing on crew boat), that i'm not paranoid about what people think about me, and that I can think straight and fast.

    Marijuana brought out my latent anxiety, depression, OCD etc. I think 99% of people have some latent phsychological issues. No one's perfect. MJ will magnify and bring out any latent issues you might have.
     
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  6. Swerve

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    Yeah this is what I think aswell.

    Also because I've smoked it from around 18, the things I want in life have changed. Getting wasted with your mates is fun when you've got no responsibilities and are able to what you want when you want. But as you get older you want more substance from life, and weed is the only barrier.

    I've got he option of moving to a new city not far away 12 months from now, which I'll do if the right job there comes along. One problem is that I've got a few interests outside of beer and weed, but most of my best mates haven't, and it kinda gets repetitive after a while.

    Its a shame because for almost a decade, we all ran a business together and did really well, but now that's we've all spent the dollar, we GOT to make it again, ASAP, but there's only a couple of us interested getting it started.

    Nice one COS
     
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    I found for me that when i started using intoxicants, i didn't ever "need" anything else. It took a while to get addicted, and i was steadfastly determined not to, to stop before its was too late. I'm not dumb, I knew things could get ugly. But, I didn't know anything about addiction. I didn't know, for example, that my intentions meant nothing at all! Chemicals became much stronger than my desire to not use them! I also didn't know that roughly 20% of men develop and become addicts to something, usually alcohol. Seeing as how I know immediately 4 people that aren't addicts in my family, statistically those numbers were correct in my case. It was the first time i ever became a statistic!

    Sure, in reality, we need to love, be loved, have food, shelter and support. But the truth was, I didn't. All i needed was to get loaded, and eventually i needed it more and more. And since my only "need" became getting drunk/high/whatever, everything else fell to the wayside. I became destitute, worthless, homeless, and empty of any sense of life. I didn't need to follow laws. I didn't need to work. I didn't need to take care of myself. It was a slippery slope and at first, it seamed like i was pulling it of ok. In retrospect, I only fooled myself. But fast or slow, it was always downhill :hs:
     
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    I've been smoking weed for about 3 years now and after a trip to Amsterdam next month I've decided that I'm going to stop. I've considerably cut down and it's more of a recreational thing now than a habit. Used to smoke all the time, even at work. life was a complete blur and aside from my mates I pretty much kept myself to myself. Unless I decided to drink instead. It's one or the other with me as they don't compliment themselves at all -- instant puke if I smoke anything after drinking.

    It does fuck with your head if you get high all the time. I definately get paranoid when stoned. When i'm 'sober' though, i'm not paranoid and return to my usual self and don't try to avoid people at all.
     

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