ok so this is the story. cliffs at bottom I havent seen my father since it was cool to go to McDonnalds, i dont remember how old i was but you get the point. he used to send me a card a year with no return address, then one year he sent one with a return address and it kinda bugged me but at that point in my life i was to fucked up off the booze and weed to give a shit. Now I am 23 years old, and sober for alomst 14 months, my life has changed ALOT and for some reason this thought and want to find him is bugging the shit out of me. so I went online and payed some cash to www.intelius.com and got his past addresses and a background check. nothing came up on the BG check. I went to the past 2 addresses and he didnt live in one and the other one doesnt even exist. I called the town police to see if they could help me in anyway and they cant, he hasnt been arrested or anything like that so they have no info they can give me. My question to you all is, what do I do now? should I give up and say i tryed and leave it at that and let it bug me forever or what? I dont know what the fuck to do and for some reason its driving me fucking nutty. please help ~sean~ cliffs: havent seen father in over 15 years> looked for him on internet and police>no info> dont know what the fuck to do now.