Let me begin this by saying I do have a problem with alcohol and drugs, I have been in recovery for 11 months, and have been clean 11 months tommorow. Also, I am in my 5th year at a University, and finals are next week. I have talked over my problem with my sponsor, and another friend, and I'm still not sure exactly what is going on. My problem is I can't stop sleeping in, on a daily basis, and I lack a serious motivation I should have for finals I will be lucky do well on. On an average day, I sleep from 1AM to 12PM and miss 1 class. The only reason I'm up right now, and feeling pretty good actually, is because I have work today. Everyday, I usually wake up feeling worse, having miss some obligation (except work) in the morning. It's like in that movie Office Space, where he says "Everyday is the new worst day of my life." I am going to elaborate a little more on exactly what happens inside my head. Many times when I wake up, I feel like what I had been dreaming is somehow more important than getting up and doing what I need to do. Going back to sleep always feels so good, and it turns into my number #1 priority until I feel rested (12 hours sleep). I've become so accustomed to being depressed from the hours of 11AM-7PM, by the time 7 rolls around and I feel somewhat normal, it's great. Unfortunately the first 8 hours of my day are often full of regret. I've stopped eating normally, and all I usually do at night is watch tv and smoke cigarettes to avoid thoughts of how unproductive my day was. I'll finish finals on Thursday, and maybe my mindset will change and I will be fine. However I'll be home for the holidays for three weeks, I really hope I am able to wake up on time and be somewhat productive during my vacation. I've ceased to enjoy life, I feel like I only exist in some half-ass manner, I don't really feel like using that much, but if I did I can't see how much worse it be really except for losing a little money. This problem has been getting worse and worse for like 2-3 months, next quarter I plan to schedule work 8AM-11AM on M-F, and hopefully that should work. Until then, I am trying to motivate myself to skate to the beach and pray when I get up, like I used to 6 months ago in recovery. I almost think only my Higher Power can help me with this, but any thoughts or suggestions would be appreciated. Thanks for reading, if you got this far.