Alright so here is my situation. Theres this girl named Kelly that ive known for over 6 years. It started as online buddies, because she lived in minnesota and I live in Iowa. We grew very close and i could trust her with anything. She became my best friend, and she visited a few times. Those few times we visited, we kinda fooled around and that even made us even closer. The last two years, i would talk to her on the phone almost every night and it really felt like someone was around who truly loved me and cared for me. The "L" word was used and i meant it. There was just one problem. She got very attached, as did i, but she was a very needy girl. One small problem, i thought, and i was excited to hear that she was coming to Iowa State to go to school, because of their good science program and because i only live a half an hour away. Great i thought, i will get to see her every weekend. Now we never dated, because we wanted to wait until she was closer for us to do that, and so i started visiting her once during the school week and she would spend the weekend at my house almost every weekend. The problem was that she was wanting to see me more than that, and i couldnt handle that, because i worked 30 hrs a week and was a full time student at DMACC, which is 20 min away from ISU. Now after a few fights and some long talks, we decided to be friends for now. I met another girl who lives a lot closer and started to date her. Her name is Emily. Now Kelly got extremely angry, saying how she wanted to be with me and how she loved me. That led to a fight that made us not talk for three months. Now its three months later, and she IM's me out of the blue. Its a little awkward but she wants to be friends again. She told me she couldnt stop thinking about how much she misses my friendship and she wanted things to be ok. And i'd be lying if i said i didnt miss her either. But she blamed all this on me and still does. All the other fights i swallowed my pride and apologized but the one three months ago i did not. So weve talked a couple times and she wants to be friends, but she says she is always so busy and has a new life now. So im thinking that shes trying to rub things in my face, but i brush that off. Today, i checked her away message and it said she is at her boyfriends watching Seinfeld. Now for some reason, i thought to myself, wow great, now all those feelings come back. I was always use to being the one to look out for her and all this, and now i can't stop thinking about her. I really do like Emily and all, but i dont know if she deserves to be put through my bullshit. So now i dont know what to do. Kelly was a virgin when i knew her and she always said how she wanted me to take it. I dont know why i can't get over her, im a fuckin retard for even talking to her again. Im terribly sorry this is so long, but i figured you guys needed some background on Kelly beforehand. What should i do with Kelly, myself, and Emily?