I don't know what it is but every single time I see some article or watch some video about smoking pot, I start to smile. I never was much of a huge pot head....in fact, there's only one time that I really indulged in pot smoking on a regular basis and that was some 17 years ago. Most people know I've been clean and sober for a little over 14 years now. No slip ups, not marijuana maintenance, no NyQuil "because I'm sick and feel like shit". No....for the past 14+ years, I've been totally clean and sober and generally speaking, pleased with my life. In those 14 years, I've done a lot to repair and rebuild my life. I've got a great job and nice things and I'm generally well liked with friends and family (this was not the way my life was going when I was late in my drinking/drug use career). In fact, things were so bad that I really didn't think I would make it to 30 because I was just a mess and screwed so many things up. So it's kind of strange sitting here and thinking...."Man a j sounds pretty good." In fact, I'm kind of obsessing on it. I see articles, videos, documentaries about pot all over the place right now and every time I do, I smile and think....aww yeah.....but holy fuck...it was hell getting clean and sober once, I really don't want to have to do it again.