life DOES get better. my uncle was an adult living with his mother for most of his life...till she died. then he tried to kill himself & was really depressed. he recovered, & at age 60 got married & is actually happy. that may be less motivational to you than it is to me. but someone i know just killed themself this past weekend, & i wish they could've known that a happy future is a possibility, no matter what you may think. i know i gave up my mod position here when i became a MF mod, so i can't sticky this. but i did help get this forum created back in the day. so listen to me anyway.