I can't stay at home anymore, and at the same time I can't leave. I can't leave because i'm broke, I have no money, no job, and i'm not going to college or any trade school. The reason i am not going to college or anything is because I have a condition known as Erythrophobia. Erythrophobia (look it up) has destroyed my life and all my confidence. I can't do anything social, and I sure as hell can't function normally when i am around people. I've tried and tried, but i just can't be around people and function like a normal human being. I can't stay home because my mother is a psycho. She is retarded and fucking crazy. I've gotten into so many physical fights with her I can't stand to even be in the same house as her. I hate her, i want to fucking kill her. She has destroyed my fathers life, and her stupid fuck daughter is now just as fucking crazy as she is. She is always telling me to get the fuck out of the house if I hate her so much. i would leave, but like I said, i have nowhere to go and I can't support myself. What the fuck should I do? I feel so pinched and I can't do a god damn thing about it. I'm 20 years old, and I feel so behind in life already.