I stopped seeing a psychiatrist a few years back (I'm young so my father was the one paying for everything, when I turned 18 he stopped paying and I stopped going). Over the past few years things have gotten progressively worse and worse as time goes on. I was in and out of hospitals due to fainting during panic attacks and often needing medical attention due to injuries caused during this. Since last year I have become completely home bound. I am 21 and do not have a license because I am too scared to drive, I have never had a job because I have panic attacks when going to fill out an application or a scheduled interview, I cannot go anywhere alone - I completely depend on my boyfriend to do everything for me. And nobody seems to understand what I'm going through. I have tried to explain it and it's just pointless. It has gotten so frustrating for me that I have gone as far as cutting, drinking, taking benzos, and crying myself to sleep most nights. I don't want to feel like this anymore, but I don't have insurance and I don't think I have the money to see a psychiatrist again. I have emailed a few places nearby to see if there is anyway I can afford treatment, I guess we'll see what the going rates are?