But I need to quit smoking. Bad. Every time I do I gain weight (hand in mouth thing I guess.) Then I feel fat and think I would rather smoke than be fat I know it doesn't make much sense. I have been smoking for ten years now (I am 22/f) and my chest hurts all the time, running is very difficult for me, I had a lump in my mouth about 1 month ago (it has since gone away but it scared the shit out of me) But I just can't seem to quit. I know I need to. I have tried the patches (quit for three months then ran out) the losenges (2mg, they make me sick and taste like crap) and the gum (makes me sick too.) Any suggestions? On how to stop the "hand in mouth" I tried drinking water (which works) and holding a pen in between my fingers when I drive/ etc. But the crazings are ridiculous?!?!?