I’m not really sure how to start this because the more I think about it the more retarded it sounds. As of lately I just haven’t been happy. It sounds dumb to me because I have a great family and wonderful friends but I am just never happy. I mean my parents would do anything for me; they are always there for me and help me. Some people would even say ism spoiled. I've always gotten whatever I wanted if my parents could do it. My father is amazing and always went out of his way to make sure I was happy and reward me, more so for me than my other brothers. But no matter what I’m still just not happy. I am 19 and never really had a long term relationship, I've always messed it up before it lasted. I'll be with someone and be happy and then I just get bored of them and stop caring. I drive people away from me. The same goes with work, I dropped out of college because I thought working would be better, and no matter what kind of job I get I am not happy. I currently work at a deli/ convenience store and hate it. I get bored of the same thing everyday. And as of lately I’ve been so stressed and angry I’ve been blowing up on co-workers over stupid crap. I just don’t know what do to. All year I looked forward to the summer, all my friends would be back and things would get better, but this summer no one came back. They all live in apartments at their respectable colleges and decided to stay for the summer. I really don’t have friends around here and that’s starting to get to me. I just don’t know what to do. I hate trying to make new friends, Online I can talk to anyone about anything, but in person I am really shy and keep to myself except around my friends. If we are hanging out with new people I am really shy, if it’s all my friends I am the life of the party. I guess I am just really lonely and life’s been bumming me out completely.