I'm just about to turn 21 and I've been debating whether or not I'm depressed. I think I may be. I don't enjoy anything... I half ass my way through school (this is pretty typical...for some reason last semester i worked my ass off and got straight A's, but now I'm back to being a C student) and I do nothing at home other than surf the internet and walk around my house. I only have one friend and he's not the "hang out" type. I haven't had a GF since October of 07. I don't even think about relationship crap anymore because 1) I have no self confidence and 2) I'm still a little bitter with girls in general because I get screwed every time I am in a relationship. I used to have some hobbies (guitar playing, playing basketball, and video games) but I don't even do them anymore because I just don't really care. I have had the same job for 3 years and I absolutely hate it. I'm trying to force myself not to quit. I go to school 4 days a week and work the other 3...so I have no days off. I haven't slept past 6 in a year and am totally dead tired every minute of every day. Sick of cold weather around here and I'm really just sick of this city in general. Everybody is the same. Literally. There's no diversity. Everyone does the same thing every day and I have no choice but to get stuck in it. I've had the same schedule for years and it's wearing on me. I have money saved up and it's gotten to the point where I'm debating just moving out of state, somewhere warm and starting over at a new school and try to meet new friends. Of course the problem with that is I only have enough money to live on for like a year, maybe a year and a half and I have no guarantee my parents would help me with tuition if I just up and left. Not that it really matters, I'm a German major which is probably just a waste of time anyway. Sorry just felt like venting a bit.