I have alot of problems with my life lately. First off I'm 21, my family and I don't get along that well. My family doesn't treat me the same as my sibilings. My sibilings get more attention and things then I do. I'm kind of the out cast. My family is rich and they act like it. There materialistic and thats not like me. They also cut down my confidence all the time which I think thats the reason I'm with a girl friend that makes me unhappy. I'll tell them about something she got mad at me for and they will say something like "well your hard to deal with" or "you not great to her" When they don't even know about the situation. I really dis-like the place where I live. But unforitunity due to the fact the college out of state is about 20k more a semester for non residents I guess I'm stuck here. I'm also very confused about getting a career and it bothers me every night. I've been dating a girl for nearly two years. Its my first relationship She puts me through hell with her emotions. I upset her all the time if I say or do the simplest thing. Shes getting help for her problems and has gotten slightly better but she still will fight with me over something stupid and then expects me to forget about it and move on. I know I should have left her by now but I don't understand why I haven't mabey its a sex addiction or I need someone close in my life due the the lack of family support. I go back in forth constently in my head and even though I know our relationship is bad I always end up back with her and it makes me so mad at myself. I feel like I have to leave town to escape her Sorry for all this I'm just so confused and don't really know what to do. Its caused me a great deal of depression and I'm starting to abuse alcohol more then ever.